It’s that time of the year again. That moment when self-doubt kicks in. Heavily. That moment I start thinking ‘why am I doing this? Everyone is so much more creative than me, everyone makes things that are so much nicer than the stuff I make!’. Take her stuff, for example. Or her, she’s such a great illustrator, why would I ever think I could be like that? Or look at her designs, I can see why people want to buy those! But my stuff? No, my stuff sucks. Even my website, I can’t even get that to look great! I mean, look at her, isn’t that logo amazing, isn’t the whole feel of the site just great? And what about this one? Or this one? But mine? No, my site is boring. Says nothing about me.
Don’t worry, I’ll get over it. I have this now and again. But one day soon I’ll wake up again, take a deep breath and stop comparing. It’s just that sometimes reality gets in the way of dreams and it makes me doubt myself very, very much. ‘What was I thinking, thinking that people actually like my drawings, my products, anything I do or make?’. Or ‘What was I thinking, no one has ever bought anything from me apart from photographs, why would they buy anything from me anyway?’.
Sigh. I think it’s time to go outside and take a small sniff of the sunshine. I’ll be fine.